so i finally went to the doctors after being told to by naomi and others. i’ve been given prozac for a months trial period to see if any changes occur but he thinks that my depression and panic attacks are caused by issues that i’ve been avoiding for most of my life. so i’m being referred to a counsellor to see if talking things out helps. i’m slightly relieved that the way i feel is out now, but i’m now worried about the affect that these pills are going to have on me. i’m assuming that this is pretty normal though.
on a lighter note, tomorrow, i’m taking mum and steven to london to go to the science museum, lunch, dinner and then to go see ‘we will rock you’.
yeah but simon webbe from blue just followed me on twitter, CRYIN SO HAPY YO
People still reblogging this effing thing
ellen, this is so peng!
i’ve watched this episode three times now.
Asked by Anonymous
I think you should see a pychologist or maybe a psychiatrist. You may get a little bit scared about it, but sometimes you just gotta do it because It's the right thing to do. Try to avoid things that affects you so much, like your situation with your dad, try to give it a break. I know It's hard, but you're not alone. I don't know how bad is your situation right now and I don't really know you, but... If you want to talk more about it, send your skype. I hope I helped you somehow. Stay strong :)
thank you so much, any advice helps! i’m so lost. i’ve been thinking that i should get some counselling. thank you :)
so, i haven’t posted in a while.
just didn’t fancy writing on twitter or facebook and i don’t really have many followers on here.
i have a million thoughts going through my head. my anxiety attacks are back and more frequent and i’m so depressed again, worse than before. i don’t know where to start. i don’t know what to do. i need to talk to someone other than naomi. but i can’t stop crying, like, if someone even asks how i am, i just cry. i can barely get out of bed. i quit my job today. i can’t pay my rent. my head hurts. i’m terrified of being alone. yet that’s exactly what i’ve let myself be, alone. i just want someone to tell me what to do. i want to tell mum how i feel, but i don’t want her to think it’s her fault. it’s not. i’m not really sure what’s brought it all back again. i haven’t had panic attacks since middle school, when i got bullied. maybe it’s dad, maybe i just never faced up to all the hurt he put my family though, maybe i just need to deal with it. confront him. i called him a week ago, didn’t pick up. text me saying he was busy so i told him to text me when he’s free. it’s been a week. no reply. no phone call. he doesn’t make an effort with me. he doesn’t care. i think he left it too long to come back. i’m so sad and everything hurts. i need to go to the doctors, but i just feel stupid. can someone just tell me what to do? everything hurts. my heart hurts, like literally. and i just don’t know why.